Last night we were reading the scrap book I made of the blog I put up for Gavin, and it inspired me to write this entry. Because, as much as it brought me back to that time, I almost could not even picture myself writing all that stuff. His arrival has answered so many of the questions I had that my brain can almost not even conceive of having the question in the first place if that makes any sense. I read entries to you and we cried and laughed and thought about what this baby has in store for us. But during all that emotion and feeling the magnitude of the things I wrote I feel like I am almost cheating this new baby with this blog. The whole reason I started writing this was to combat that. I finally see what my parents went through when I came along, and it is kinda sad. The strange thing is I am more excited about this pregnancy than the first because I KNOW what is in store for the most part and I can enjoy it and cherish it all the more. So I guess I just typed myself into understanding why this baby is so special to me. I guess that is the beauty of not editing what I type.
I love you with all my heart!
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