15 Weeks 1 day

Today I was called in for a shift at the fire Department. Normally that isn't a problem, but I already work a 24 tomorrow and I have Clinical from 8 am to 4 pm on Sunday so I am going to be away from you guys for 48 hours straight. I am kinda bummed out, but we really need the money with the little one on the way. It was so nice because you brought Gavin to come see me at the station and we got to talk for a little while. He was playing and grabbed that rubberband from the radio room and put it on his wrist. So funny. I found it laying on the Coke machine low shelf just a second ago so I put it on my wrist cuz I am thinking about you guys. I miss you so much. New baby I just want you to know daddy is working just as hard for you as anyone. I love you already.

Love,
Daddy

13 weeks 4 days

Every once in awhile you get a sharp pain in your lower abdomen. A quick search on the Internet reveals: "Round ligament pain may result in short, stabbing and sharp aches in one or both sides of the abdomen." This is pretty much exactly what you are describing to me and there is no spotting or cramping associated so that makes me feel a lot better. Lately I am having an overwhelming urge just to hear your voice and hear what is going on at home. I miss you guys so much lately. It's all I can do not to call you. I miss you all so much!

12 weeks 1 day

You had a doctors appointment yesterday and you told me you could hear the babies heartbeat. It totally made me misty. I guess I was just so relieved that everything is going well. They also gave you the glucose test because Gavin was so huge when he was born they want to make sure you don't have gestational diabetes. I thought they tested you for that when you had Gavin too and everything came out negative, but I could be wrong.

11 weeks 1 day

Last night we were reading the scrap book I made of the blog I put up for Gavin, and it inspired me to write this entry. Because, as much as it brought me back to that time, I almost could not even picture myself writing all that stuff. His arrival has answered so many of the questions I had that my brain can almost not even conceive of having the question in the first place if that makes any sense. I read entries to you and we cried and laughed and thought about what this baby has in store for us. But during all that emotion and feeling the magnitude of the things I wrote I feel like I am almost cheating this new baby with this blog. The whole reason I started writing this was to combat that. I finally see what my parents went through when I came along, and it is kinda sad. The strange thing is I am more excited about this pregnancy than the first because I KNOW what is in store for the most part and I can enjoy it and cherish it all the more. So I guess I just typed myself into understanding why this baby is so special to me. I guess that is the beauty of not editing what I type.

I love you with all my heart!